Not confused, still emotional, getting very angry

[reachingHigher]

Oh girl, I hope snodderly comes along and gives you some of her wisdom and knowledge!

In the meantime...I can just say I totally understand. Every GF, every family member, everyone I would meet had the same message for me, "move on". And I tried to mentally but knew in my heart how much I loved my H and had the feeling that deep down he really loved me too.

I'm not totally out of this thing yet, but am following the plan here and am so glad I didn't push my H farther for D as was suggested to me by friends and family. I went along with the DB plan, including my DB coach.

My H went out with some friends last night, told me ahead of time the plan and with whom, called me as he was leaving, and said ILY as we hung up. He then texted me before nine and said he was back at his apartment etc. I know from on FB the rest of the crowd was going dancing but he didn't go.

And he's planning on being here tonight and this weekend as he is 5 nights a week now. We are moving slowly, I'm giving him plenty of space.

You know, B, he was pushing for a D the first of January this year. The papers are sitting in the office in town with me as petitioner and all he needs to do is sign them.

I don't know how to give you courage other tha this. Yes, not all marriages are saved but I needed to change too, regardless of if we stayed together. Painful, heck yes!

Try one day at a time, just get though today. Forever Young said "consult the plan, not the feelings." I try to do that a lot. I get down a lot too still.

Lift your chin up and know we all care and are here rooting for you!!

Lots and lots of hugs,
rH