Bea, He's just hiding right now, but something is bugging him and he will be back out to play again very soon. Easter is upon us and I suspect he's gone MIA because it is a family holiday and he's still not capable of facing himself for destroying the family unit.
Congratulations to your son on getting his scholarship. You and your son should be very proud.
I don't think they knew the meaning of the wprd "love". I think they looked at us and the family as just another toy in the toy chest. They loved us the best way that they could considering the way that many of them were raised. I don't think many had role models that would win any awards for being "loving" parents. It's unfortunate that so many have walked away from good relationships to go in search of the illusive happiness and continue to run this very day.
I do understand how you feel because I feel the same way and often wonder why bother getting married and staying in a relationship as long as they did and then toss everything aside to start over. However, you have described the way they feel about life, relationships and love at the moment, i.e., like a suit of clothes that can be taken off and replaced w/a new set.
Bea, thank you for coming here and expressing your thoughts and ideas. It helps all of us to reflect and try to figure out where we are today and where we would like to be in the future.
Happy Easter!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
