Sorry I glossed over this, I caught up with my thread whilst at the gym and this did not show up then.
Thanks for passing on the advice. I believe Ws LLs are words of appreciation, touch in an affectionate way and acts of service. I kind of went down the route of acts of service in a big way (ie overdoing it), touch in the wrong way (sexual), and gifts - tried to give her whatever she wanted, and forgot the words of appreciation. Hence my wife feeling lack of affection and taken for granted.
Main problem is I can't touch her. In fact I brushed by this morning and got a frosty look and choice of words, it was actually not intentional I was trying to get past! Words of appreciation are good, but tend to be brushed off with - why you saying thank you, or I've always done that why notice now.
One thing W always liked was my humour - but it feels like it does not come naturally any more - or W has barriers up against laughing. This is annoying as that's the way to her heart!
Me: 38 W: 35 M: 9Yrs T: 15Yrs S8 D5 BD: Feb 13 Still Living Together
I feel like I'm in thick forest, I'm slowly drawing a map of the way out, but not sure yet which side of the forest I will emerge.