I appreciate the positive input, it's easy to get discouraged during this long process. Those of us who've been cheated on can relate to this, i've got that gut feeling that she's reconnecting with OM. I hate having to snoop to prove it I'm just lost right now. When I say cut her loose I absolutely mean kick her out. Her mother, father, grandparents all live in town and her mom (who's aware of the affairs) has said she could stay with her but kids would have to stay with me. I just not sure how else to enforce the boundary.
I'm not perfect but I'm not a doormat either. I ask myself if my son or daughters came to me with my problem Id question their sanity for putting up with what I have.