M1, I've been looking out the window and just now you've helped me look into the window. Meaning that I'm seeing W's side now. Yeah, it's good to be listened to and heard. Because of what I learned out of DR, she may not have been receiving it the same way from me.
Thanks for the tip on reading 5LL twice. I definitely will. I'm not afraid of the initial slap in the face. I do want to change for the better so that the next gal whether it's my W or someone else, will benefit from all the hard work I've done to improve and I'll be fortunate enough to try again and succeed by learning from my mistakes.
I agree. I need to figure out what it means to ME. I've already figured what my career options mean to me and what will be best for me. Now I need to figure out the R factors.
Well even though GAL may not be an issue, it helps me keep the R off my mind. Believe it or not, I thought about it all the time before the BD.
I see the point about the stuff. It makes sense. The last time I put her first was to make sure I was at her graduation despite just arriving at this location. 10 days later, I flew up to be there. Most bosses would not be willing to let a new person do that. However, I asked before arriving and my boss had no problem. It was great to have shared her milestone and see her so happy.
It's interesting the word "martyrdom" appeared. My IC said the same word today in reference to, "Why would I go and be in a position of being in a location that is near the children, yet I might be in a sitch where W and I don't get along and I'm in a job I don't like but am limited for options?" IC said that would be an act of martyrdom. I do believe that those 4 words don't help strengthen a marriage. I am ready to be different and have a better marriage. As far as I'm concerned the marriage we had is now dead. I would much rather have a new one with my W and leave the other one behind. Or have a new one with someone else.
Continue to walk with me M1. I'm ready for a new journey. Thanks!
