bug, it would kill me inside - I guess pride has been an issue for me this week. I think it would kill my pride. I don't want to punish H or his friend. That's the truth. I used to think I deserved justice or retribution, but I don't feel that way right now. H's friend has been involved in our lives for a long time and feeling I don't have his support, it would hurt my pride to have him at party. But I also realized last night that not everyone is going to support me and that's fine. H's friend does support d17 and that is most important.
Even making this way too easy on H is my pride speaking. I feel 'moving on' or 'accepting' this situation or H's actions wounds my pride and makes me a fool. But I'm accepting anyways, understanding that my actions are important, not my feelings. Feelings can change but my actions are on record.
