Was carrying a lot of retaliatory anger about W applying for her apt. so close to our move out day. I had started to hope she didn't get it so I could justify my selfish anger and superiority about me handling my own stuff. This feelings were suffocating me so I spent a lot of time last night thinking about how I had hurt my wife on the past with poor behavior. A real departure for me as my typical response would have been to let it fester. Once the mental pathway of empathy was opened the anxiety went away. This morning I was actually able to just listen and not react to what she said. Even though some of it was hurtful.
I like this place, going to focus on staying here emotionally. Also she got the place she really wanted which is a huge relief. W and S will be happy there.
Me-36 W-31 M-7 S-5 BD Dec/12- things were wrong for awhile, head was in the sand
Seeking means: to have a goal Finding means: to be free, to be receptive, to have no goal
