It's been almost seven months for me and the grieving still pops up once in a while. More on the what could have been, rather than the H is gone bit though.
For me once I accepted and understood that these are not my decisions and I only can make my own, my own acceptance of H's choices became easier. I don't have to like them, but I have to respect them.
H is not mine for now. My feelings for him haven't changed, but who is to say that after 6 months, a year, 2 years they won't? I don't know the future. All I know is this is where I am today and I determine my path, not his. I have always said that I will be exactly in the same place down the road whether or not H and I should be together or not.
