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[Tallula]

All boils down to what you're willing to accept right now.

Yep. That's the deal. That's what I need to really look at. Honestly, I'm pretty much 75% willing to have sex because I want it since I'm pregnant, and won't cheat. I've always been very sexual, but I'm turbo charged preggo. Where it gets tricky is when my mind wonders to "am I letting him cake eat..." Like am I letting him get away with something. And that's just silly. Most of the time I don't care. I want to get some. I am capable of separating the feelings from sex. Truly.

Big question: would you have put up with this when you weren't prego? Not to be preachy, because I'm the last one with a right - your kids are so close together has your body even fully recovered from the first two? Physically wise, I've read that it takes two years for a woman's body to recover from child birth. I have no real idea how long it takes for the hormones to normalize...

Oh, probably not. My hormones are definatley playing a large part. At least in my emotional state. I often wonder if I'd even be standing at this point if I wasn't pregnant. But, I am. I can't change it. So, here we are. You aren't being preachy at all. I put this out there to get others opinions. I've removed the potential drama, ie OWH. I have accepted that OW is still around, so it's not like I'm pretending he isn't still sleeping with her. I'm firm on no moving back unless NC and no moving forward with R. So, I need to really soul search. And I would have to say to him that if he spends the night, no moves. Cause my preggo brain might say yes and it has the potential to hurt me emotionally. For as sick as H is, me saying that would stop him in his tracks. He's gotten that now when I'm saying no sex, it's to protect my boundaries, not an insult to him. Well, at least he has gotten that for a few weeks...