My painting party wasn't for you, I like blue!

[albamarie]

Snodderly,

Thanks for posting. I have done just that, I have stopped everything even those things I used to do just because he works hard. I have done everything for him he ever needed and that is gone, I am not treated as a wife, I will not act like one.

Last night we spoke finally and he told me that he is afraid to make the wrong choice. Leaving home is the wrong choice and he's not finding it so easy to do. He asked me if he can live here, provide as usual, while I go on enjoying the family, moving forward with plans, while he works and finishes the journey he has been on exploring the dark side.

He calls it a dark side of himself, that he never wants touched by the family, that he gives to ea because she's of that character, that he has not completely finished exploring. He said he could walk away from that but he would be left with an abrubrut end to his journey, and worries he needs to see it through.

This sound like a bunch of bullsht to me but does fall in line with what you say about h needs to complete his journey, they need to come out of the tunnel completely on their own at their own pace? He's always been good at sounding like the poster MLCer and I wonder if there is something to what he says.

He says ea is a dark, ugly, damaged person that he identifies with and her friends because it is in line with his flip. But, not me, and he yells at me to not follow him into the darkness, but he doesn't want to leave the family. He has told ea and friends that he is not leaving us, and asks me to ignore him, he's not having a PA, just let him find his nothing he's looking for.

I would appreciate yours, and all readers view on this. My friend said BS GTFO, but I don't know, I held on this far two years, I'm not at the end of our journey so do I let it ride? I agreed it sound like BS, but heck, if I truly did put this in Gods hands should I interfere ?

Thanks In advance.....I feel as if I am a very crucial point, maybe the most crucial. I would like to call a coach if I can get the $$$ together, any recommendation on who is best suited for this stage and my sitch?