Wfm, she is always here except for bed time. Eats supper here every evening, comes by in the morning to finish getting ready.

MB, my primary focus has been playing with my sons. Sports, motorcycles, etc. I haven't found anything that's for me, on my own (so to speak).

W stopped by for lunch. I was able to act like my old self. Blamed my attitude on being tired from dealing with S through the night. Took me a good nap which helped. She looked beautiful. I see enough of the old her to ache when she's around. I miss my best friend.

Thinking about getting on an AD to help me through this. I'm just not able to shake the fear of my family being destroyed. I don't want to be unfeeling like W and be ok with the sitch, but I can't continue this way or I'm no good to anyone.

M - 42
W- 37
S's - 9,6
M-12
T-14
FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011
ILYBNILWY - march '12
FIL - died jan '13
W Moved out week later