Thank you for the support. Glad you got something out of IC advice, AS. Another nugget she suggested was leaning forward when H speaks. The act shows interest and will physically remind me to be receptive and stay away from anger.
Labug, I have been reading your thread and think your email to H was really a good example of being the person you want to be.
Originally Posted By: labug
Most of us go through like on autopilot never noticing what we're really feeling and we react to things without thinking.
This was me for so many years and it's embarrassing to admit. I understood the concept of living in the moment and having awareness but had NO comprehension of how to actually put the principal into practice. I worried and worried 24/7. Still do, but now I can usually catch myself and try to stop the process.
But today I'm in a funk and am frustrated with my dbing (expectations!). The one-sided promoting friendship is a self defeating process. I know consistent change and PMA is important, but I keep remembering that movie "He's Just Not Into You" and think - WTH am I doing?
H is never aggressively unkind, but he just seems like he doesn't care. He's abrupt. And I expect that a lot of the not caring is (mind reading!) 1) doesn't want to give any positive encouragement 2) doesn't want to let wall down for self protection 3) just plain old doesn't care anymore.
Well I'll have to see him briefly today so it'll be time to put my PMA mask on soon.
