Is there light at the end of the tunnel Part 1?

[Bel123]

So I went to sleep last night after the above conversation with W not feeling like crap but woke up feeling like it.

A few things that are on my mind are

Should I ask W in more concrete terms if she wants S or D? Sometimes I feel like she doesn’t want to say those words not to hurt me and sometimes I feel like she doesn’t say them because she has not made up her mind yet.

Her comment about not seeing herself wanting to sleep with me again, I really want to ask if she is planning on sleeping with someone else. I have not ask and I don’t think I should but does the two relate? I wanted to tell her how this is now and it might change and how she is under the fog but I didn’t. It’s so hard to bit your tongue sometimes.

MIL and FIL really like me and telling them about my D might change that but I am ok with that. I am fine with the outcome but sometime tells me that W wants to NOW let them know because if not, they would not be as supportive of her wanting to end the M. Or would not be supportive of OM or someone else but if they knew my cheating before we were M and had a child, they might be more supportive of her actions now. Yes I know mind reading and I shouldn’t. I was honestly hoping they would be the sense of reason to her if and when she brought up the fact she wanted a D.

Also, during this conversation, should I just keep to telling them about my D? I know W said she will talk to her about our M issue on Friday. I don’t want to tell them about that as I think it might be her place to. I also want to let them know that I love her and want it to work out but I am sure she will see that as me trying to get them on my side. At the end that wouldn’t matter because the only side that would count in this situation is W side.