I often see similarities between the female LBS on this board...we tend to be "strong", sarcastic, controlling presences in life. As mentioned here by WFM, I too, tended to keep back. Hold a place to myself where I couldn't be hurt. The gift is we get to look really hard at ourselves and say "Do I want to live the rest of my life this way?"
Many have decided that no, they don't, and are finding new paths new ways of being. Discovering who they were and who they can be. IN this, AD, your journey has been remarkable, if you ever care to go back to beginning of your posts and see the growth happen. Kudos