You have put me back in my place. You are right, i do feel guilty and I feel ashamed of who i was last year, of who I became. Of how I treated the woman I love, and the impact that my depression had on my family. I made a promise to myself when my wife said that she did not want me back to never go back to that darkness and the person i became. I am making progress slowly, but i get knwocked out and the hopelessness sometimes takes over. But the most important thing is that I get back up. My biggest reward at the moment is the bond that I have rekindled with my sons, stronger than ever and it is making me realise that by changing me, i can affect those around me positively. My wife is hurt and she is suffering too, I fully recognise this but I also notice that if i am upbeat, she starts off a little edgy but evenutally softens up. I will be grateful that we are on speaking terms and accept that I am responsible for my behavious and I can only control myself, no one else. Thansk for the piece on detachment and I will be sure to check out your thread too. Keenly waiting on the arrival of DR.
Patience Patience Patience.....
Me - 37 W - 37 M -5 T - 15
S=5 S=3
Seperated - 12/12 BD - 20/03/13 Still seperated - no R or M talk yet.
