Is there light at the end of the tunnel Part 1?

[Bel123]

Breakdown, both your points of feeling shame/guilt and feeling not deserving of W as well as W bringing it up years later is defiantly at play in my stich. I am learning to forgive myself and learning how to be a better father for both of my kids. I am learning from my S when I didn’t learn from my D since she was not close by. With my S I am fully involved and feel bad I wasn’t with my D. For it being such a long distance between my D and I, I do think I am a involved father. I didn’t think I was but GPs say that and how I do care about whats going on in her life. That’s a moral boost for sure.

W thinks all if not most of the problems she has with including depression is due to me and our relationship. She also said her GM had depression as well and so do others in her family so I am not sure how she make me the reason but I didn’t disagree with her, I validated and said yeah I can see how things have been and that can make things difficult.

I am owning up to 100% of the 50% LOL. I am owning it and I am not even talking about her 50% to her as I know she is not ready to hear it. She always hates when I "spread the blame". How hard it is to sit there and take it but hey DBing aint easy right?