The girls were out with family tonight leaving W and I alone. We went out to eat together. It was nice but a little awkward. It is absolutely terrible to say that you feel awkward with someone you have been around for 23 years. Pretty sad actually. The conversation was good. The night went fine.
However, I caught myself thinking that I don't know if I can do this. I don't know if I can continue to put my heart and soul into this not knowing where it is heading. I guess I am just on the roller-coaster and tonight I am on the downslope.
On a brighter note, I am going to the game with a buddy. I didnt even mention to W if she would be interested in going. It will be nice to just get away.
M 37 W 36 T22 M14 D8 D4 8/2012 distanced BD 11/2012 (likely wants D. Feelings have changed.) W move out date: June 8th.
