I think going out alone is positive because before I always relied on H or a friend for company. If they could not come or did not want to I would not do it for fear of being alone in a foreign country.
H stopped liking anything during his depression so yeah traveling was one of them among other things like martial arts, going to movies, eating out. He doesnt like any of that anymore. recently i can get him to come for lunch but only if I pay. his reasoning? "oh you work alot now and make more money so you should pay for me."
Yes i was major grumpy before the D bomb, i think maybe i was depressed also because for one year prior to this he was a basket case, only he was still affectionate to me but I had to fight tooth and nail to get him out of the house, funny enough he jumps at the chance to go out if his friends invite him, just not with me. I was grumpy because he wasnt interested in me outside of the bedroom.
My weight. I am 5 ft. 5 and weight 120 pounds. I have never been fat but husbands often compares me to Japanese girls who are much more petite than me. H has told me I am fat even though I am not. I have tried to diet as a result of his critiques but i realize that the weight i am at is what i should be at and i dont diet or worry about it anymore.
I usually dress pretty good but i stepped it up and wear more business formal outfits at work instead of the minimum black slacks and sweater. When I am out of the town I dress pretty nice. I dont always worry about makeup though because I have acne. I wear more eye makeup now to take the focus off my pimples.
I like cats (having 2 of my own) and I want to volunteer to take care of cats at a shelter near fukushima. Its both to give us space and also because I love cats.
as for my dramatic language, i spent most of my life in Seattle so i guess i like to use alot of idioms. I really do talk like I write. May or may not be a good thing but thats part of who I am.
