The last one is the last play. We/I can beat myself up for things I've said and done and, at least in my case, W is so focused on her that it doesn't even register a day later.

My screw ups, oh gosh, get your pencil sharp. Crying, begging, bartering, trying to buy her love, snooping, trying to make her jealous, getting angry and telling her all her mlc symptoms, telling her ill wait for her no matter how many dudes she sleeps with, etc. You tell me what you did and ill match or beat it. Most of us have. This is not easy.

M - 42
W- 37
S's - 9,6
M-12
T-14
FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011
ILYBNILWY - march '12
FIL - died jan '13
W Moved out week later