Thanks

[PatientMan]

I am analytical by nature - I tend to get caught up and worry about the details too much, sometimes falling into a "paralysis by analysis" trap. I was just going to post some more history of my sitch to provide additional context and perhaps stir up more valuable insight from the casual observers who have the benefit of being removed from the situation and can thus more objectively opine. (Anybody with a problem and a thread here knows how appreciative the perspective of others on this MB is.)

But as I thought through what I was typing out I was able to step back from myself and see the bigger picture a little better. I want to get caught up in the specifics. "What do I do in this exact scenario given these exact parameters? Okay, what if this changes? Or this? Or that?" I'm trying to plan everything ahead of time to take any uncertainty out of this situation.

Well THAT isn't any good. Sure, it's okay to want to be well prepared, but am I learning lessons here or not? Is an important lesson that I can't control every situation and think of every possible scenario ahead of time, all the time? I think so.

I'll post more information regarding my and W's history, both pre and post BD, but I'm not going to get overly caught up in the analytics of it. As labug reenforced with me, I just need to be the person I want to be, first and foremost. There may be intricacies, nuances, and "ignore your instinct" specifics that I need to be cognizant of so I don't make foolish mistakes, but I just need to be me, and that's somebody only a fool would leave.