Thanks Reb...I tried so hard to not communicate with him this weekend...told him I was okay without talking...as soon as I said I didn't want to talk he wanted to...did not want to do it on my terms he said...
Well I tried so hard to hold it together but you know how that goes so early in the process.
I just want to pause things...take a break...wish I could do it with confidence that he would do the same.
He did not respond with an open heart or mind last weekend either I don't think...why I wanted to wait to have a talk...it is like talking to a wall right now...
I like the idea of trying to just make it one week or two weeks at a time...that had been my goal and got derailed...now to get back at it...
Just very low point...I think I might need to write a letter for my own therapy and not send it.
H has said would be here this Saturday and then Sunday morning...who knows he changes things pretty quick depending on how he feels and how stressed, depressed or sad he is.
