Just had a long conversation with my H-this time not about the $$. I just had to email him to express that I was upset at the whole deal with the woman he's seeing and the FB pictures, and that I felt there was a big elephant in the room. So I did it. It felt good to release the emotion.
He called and said it was hard for him to let go, and sometimes felt like calling me when he was upset or needed comfort, but he wasn't doing it. He also said he's having troubles w this OW and wanted my help to be a better person. So I gave him my honest feedback. He listened and thanked me for the feedback. He asked about my plans for the future and said he still had to figure out what he wanted. Said he's very conflicted and still wonders if he's doing the right thing. So, overall, it was good to talk to him without holding back.
I told him how I was afraid of him sometimes, how I felt that he got bored with the M and was looking for excitement, how I felt that I had also made mistakes and taken him for granted. It was a good release.
We'll see how that mediation session goes on Friday. I told him that after the D is final, of course I'll be OK about his OW, but now, due to my values, I felt I was being disrespected. He said I was right. At least he listened. Anyway, gotta get back to work!
