i particularly like th epina colata idea - could die for one now and a buddy-girl to kick back and sit on the patio and chat.
me too also across the board- i'm feeling myself thinking i may not be able to manage it if he ever did totally come back.
i don't think he thinks he's gone or i ever will be - for the moment still - i think the fact that he thinks i'm nuts enough to endure this forever works for me- hate looking like a dope - but think it's good strategy still for now.
i can't remember what it felt like to feel sexual atraction- sad huh- maybe the turmoil of last couple years? maybe haven't run into another man that attracted me in 37 yrs - that's sad too isn't it? i got to get this guy out of my head. looked at him with clear eyes at wake other day- didn't see him as attractive at all- just some old goofy looking guy. i do n't stop and look very often.
oh well- i'm sure he thinks i'm a hag- i'd think his ow is firmly planted in his head as the best beauty queen at moment- i got nothin on that subject.
i like your dream -i ';ll live vicariously- will be interesting to see where im' at with this all - if i ever did run into anyone mildly interesting. so far only invitation to lunch made me run away screaming. not ready by a long shot.
