Hi Tori,

Thank you. That means so much to me.

This evening...Without really planning it, I told H that this does not work for me anymore. We were speaking about parenting, and in my head i just felt so tired of it. There is nothing that can change while he still continues to view me as his adversary. He chooses to live away from the kids. Besides phone calls, what else can be done? This is not the type of father or parenting I want for my children.

He continues to make these choices, no judgement, but they do not work for me and the kids. I told him I feel settled, I am happy and I have made my choices of how I want to live. I said I am done and am letting go.

And right now I feel anger towards him again. For everything that has happened and the father my children do not have, and the shield he has put up that prevents him from being home with them.

So there we are friends.

Sigh....

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home