Well I dont have 6 kids but the rest of your story I have lived through.
It sounds like you are making the best of it.
You will get more responses in newcomers or MLC, but here is OK too.
I check in here fairly regularly.
If your religion is really preventing your divorce then that is great. In my religion you must have a special "get" to be able to remarry and the man controls that. So I am divorced according to the laws of the US, but not according to my religion.
Keep being the best DAD that you can possibly be because if anything is going to draw you back together again it is going to be your children.
I agree that it may take some TIME or a lot of TIME.
