I want so much to be heard, understood, known. Really known by someone.

But can you let someone see the vulnerable part of you in order to really be heard.

From my life: I projected a persona of a wise-cracking, sarcastic, do almost anything for a laugh, tough cookie because I felt that if anyone got to the soft-center of me I would be lost. I had to protect that at all costs because others might not respect that, honor that, they might make fun of it, I would feel ashamed by the "real" me.

So I created a hard shell around that soft-center and protected it with every fiber of my being.

I couldn't let people really know be because I was afraid.

I've been chipping away at that shell for 3 years now and it's almost gone.

How many people do you let in, really let in?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss