Yes, Crazyville, exactly. That is what I believe based on all evidence to date.
It doesn't really matter so much what his motivations were, to decide what I should do. I can't get into his head. The idea of spending 48 hours with him, driving and sleeping and eating and pretending everything is fine with us...doesn't feel OK with me.
I'm still grieving even though I've accepted the decision. It is sad to watch a marriage die even if it's inevitable and ultimately the right thing to do. I'm not at the point where I can share a bedroom with H because it's painful to me.
I think facilitating this trip, and participating in it, in spite of where we are in all of this, is pretty good. I don't know too many people outside of DB who could have a nice family trip together in the middle of their own divorce. I think I'm doing pretty well rolling with things, even if working through the emotions takes a lot of typing.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
