Stuck..how do I get out???

[tiredndrained]

MizJJD...you are absolutely correct in that I always react to my H. I say I won't but I always do. I don't want to but I get so upset and so angry and find myself sucked into all the BS he puts me through. I did read DR but maybe I should read it again. Compared to months ago he is nicer and home more, but to be honest, not making it much easier. Now I just feel like he is confused and leaving me and the kids in limbo. I don't see any peace until he actually makes a decision. Plus, the coming and going, even though less than before, is still a major issue. He spends money like water that we don't have. I just put up with it frankly bc it seems to be the only thing that makes him happy and keeps peace in the home. Sounds silly, right??

I'll have be creative and come up with a new name for myself. I'll get back to you with that one....lol

On the plus side, I actually got asked for drinks by a guy I know. I'm not interested in going out with anyone right now. It would just complicate things further. It did, however, make me feel a little better. Going away this week on business. Trying not to communicate too often with H and when he went out this past Sat and Sun did not ask him any questions about where he went or call or text him. I guess that is progress, right?

Does anyone know if they really ever come back? Do people live like this forever? I'm just wondering if all this waiting is just wasting time?