Still working on me

[sweetbabyred]

I'm starting to see old H return. Unfortunately, I think we will need to D in order for him to continue his journey and figure himself out.

H and his IC don't think its fair to ask me to wait while he figures himself out, as he's not sure that he'll return to me, and I know what I want in life, so I need to be free to pursue it.

I have another year of graduate school, so that's going to be my focus for now. Even if I'm D, I don't plan on looking for someone new anytime soon, so maybe I will still be available if/when H decides to return.

H is doing better. Still working out, went to church yesterday, and cleaned up his apt. On Friday night he invited me to bingo with his friends and on Saturday I went with him to see SS for the first time since he got back to Texas.

They live almost 100 miles away, so it was a bit of a road trip and I'm glad that he waited for me to get off work so that I could go to. I think part of it was that he didn't want to deal with his thoughts during that long drive and preferred company. Either way, I was happy to see SS and the rest of his family.

I've got a mud run this weekend and plenty of school and work to keep me busy. H is making slow, but steady progress. Hopefully he will one day love himself and be able to work on his own dreams.