So close I can taste it...

[leopoldstotch]

SM why do you feel that you are getting 2x4's? I can tell you that you are being told to detach so much is because the majority of us see how enmeshed in your W you really are. I don't recall if you are seeing a counselor but if I were you I would go asap. I understand how you feel you've been dealt one heck of a blow and it's hard to deal with. Even after all this time in my sitch there are still times when I fell bad and down. They are few and far between but talking to a professional really does help.