I am finally off moderation so able to post which feels great. Thanks all for everything up to now. Not sure if its worth starting fresh again as i feel like this thread has become a little confused over the week?

I will now start to work through questions asked and try and get myself on track again with saving this marriage of mine!

Me: 38 W: 35
M: 9Yrs T: 15Yrs
S8 D5
BD: Feb 13
Still Living Together

I feel like I'm in thick forest, I'm slowly drawing a map of the way out, but not sure yet which side of the forest I will emerge.