Have been reading through so many stories and i guess its nice to realise that my story is not unique by any means.

I am confused as to what the line in the sand is for worrying about her or caring. Is it wrong to show that you are interested in how she is doing and how she is feeling?

What level of care is enough for her to know that you are still here without pushing here away. I dont want her to think that I dont care about how she is doing.

I cant help but worry if she is okay, when i picked up the kids the other morning she look so tired and sad. I didnt ask her how she was, but i could tell she wasnt in a good place. She must feel incredibly guilty for the children i imagine. She must be suffering as much as I am but in her own way.

Her aunty died the other week....the same afternoon she told me and the C that she did not want to continue the relationship. I didn't find out until a few days later.... She no longer feels the need to share her pain or sorrows with me anymore.

The weekend of BD she invited herself to our friends house to go and tell them what is going on between us. My good mate was dumbstruck as she rattled out her story. He said she was crying and speaking with conviction that she had had enough and that was it, like a pre-rehearsed story. Apparently she got drunk which she has been doing for a while but i think she has started cutting back.

She has not mentioned D just yet and is not really making any quick moves to organise the formal separation although living in an apartment and not my home is pretty darn separated. I will leave it up to her to organise it if she wants. I will support her but not the decision, i have no interest in speeding it up.

Man as soon as you think you are getting somewhere, you start second guessing yourself and then the sadness kicks in pretty quickly after that.

Conversation still friendly at this stage, but i will avoid all M talk like the plague unless she initiates and if that happens, i will try and keep it shortish but listen as much as possible

Me - 37
W - 37
M -5
T - 15

S=5
S=3

Seperated - 12/12
BD - 20/03/13
Still seperated - no R or M talk yet.