Here we go loopty loo. Here we go loopty li.

[Raine]

AJ that was a great Robin Williams bit! It fits so perfectly. Annoyingly true.

H has spent more time here this week than he has ever since S. Two nights with the boys. One I went out and the other I spent time with S2 so he could play with the older ones. He was here here for several hours on sat while I had lunch with friends, took care of work issues, and ran errands. Then he came over again today to shower, laundry, and watch a movie. I snuggled into him during the movie, which I don't know if I regret or not. A bit of both.

He is talking to me a lot. Texting me a lot. He is overly concerned about me and showing more concern for the boys. Telling me directly and sending me songs saying that he will be here for me for whatever i need. He calls me up to tell me about his night. He'll text me after midnight to see if I'm awake and then calls me. Maybe I was just happy in this 5 day period he hadn't gone to see one of his twinkle twats. So of course that's where he goes tonight. But this is new. He is there, and texting me.

It's not getting any easier. It's just getting harder. And I cried tonight for the first time in awhile.