Hi ladies! Thank you for your support and feedback.

I think venting here really helped because I was cooler than I thought I could be when H arrived. I navigated the convo about work, the kids and other business matters. Kept it light and friendly, applauded his recent work projects, chatted a bit about recent trip to Cairo and then said good night. I walked him to the door and said safe home.

It was freeing not to have an R talk and to feel so calm. It as freeing to just accept the few hours as they were... A catch up with someone I know. I wasn't afraid ... That is good. For now it's good for me. Need to remember this so that I can stop my spinning in the future.

2 thank you for your support about the kids. And inside you are correct, no expectations and if it happens its a nice thing to happen. Sometimes in this 'new normal' I forget EVERYTHING has to change... New habits need to form.


Love you ladies. ((((((( ))))))

Hi PON, thank you for coming by! I read your posts and thread and value many of your opinions and POV. Thank you again for coming by. I have been here since May. I suppose I can see that from that post you referred to I must look obsessive still about H... The post you refer to especially... I was spinning... Hadn't seen H for 8'weeks and I was twisted in knots. So vented a lot yesterday and day before.

Please read further back more if you want, I think I'm in a better place than I portrayed in that post for the most part. I would appreciate your opinion or any comments you may have that could help me ( and others reading) continue to move forward . (((((())))))

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home