Thanks, Ad, that's helpful and affirming. You're one of the clearest thinkers I know and appreciate your input.
New behaviors are harrrrrd! Even if the old ones were crappy and destructive, there was no difficult thinking involved. It was all on auto.
One other change, I wanted to appease him yesterday. Just a little email saying something like "You seemed angry when you left, sorry blah blah blah, didn't mean to be harsh, it was just so early..." Set a boundary, feel bad about it, erase it.
Do you feel sometimes that this is like having an amputation without anesthesia, cutting out these parts of us?
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
