New Day Rising 3

[AJM]

GWN, I don't think you're being a complete downer. I think you are being honest and sincere. I honestly appreciate that.

In the past, I've felt that way as well. That was mostly when things were just getting started. At the time, it felt like it would last forever. I tried AD's - that didn't work for me. It had the opposite effect and I loathed that. For me, in the end it came down to the choice of either laying down and fading away, or facing my fears. I chose the latter and I'm glad I did. It has not been easy, no matter what I have told others. It has been a lot of work. Each day.

For me it wasn't the abandonment, it was the hatred. I don't know why exactly, but that hurt more than anything. Along the way, I've felt like I would be alone. Like I couldn't tell anyone. I did anyway and let them figure out what they were going to do with that information. Some were receptive and listened. Others can't comprehend either because they lack experience or because they are too afraid to deal with those kinds of issues.

I hear ya. What is it you do to feel better? Nature walks? Hang out in crowds? Something else?

AJ