Wow its been a while since i posted here! I got back from my Philippines trip about 2 weeks ago. It was very nice and I was happy to be on my own for a while with my family. I was able to talk to my Grandma and relatives about what was going on too. My husbands behaivor has gotten better since coming off the medicine, he is more cheerful and active around the house. He loves cooking so he always cooks me dinner. He hasnt talked about D for the past 2-3 months so Im not sure if he even wants it anymore or if he is just cake eating at this point. We are still loveless, no intimacy or touching, i dont try to initiate anything anymore and i only talk to him if he talks to me first.
Since my vacation though I am seriously thinking of walking away =( Even though my husband is getting better, theres no telling if he will ever be affectionate with me again and thats something i NEED in a relationship.
Even if its just a small guesture, like holding hands, thats atleast SOMETHING but im not even getting that right now and havent for 6 months.
Im going to give my husband a bit more time and continue with my 180's and see what happens but if I dont see any more improvement by june I am going to call it quits. Theres no sense to me being in Japan if I dont have my husbands love and support.
I know I need to be patient...but how patient is patient?
here is a list of 180's I am doing: *speak only when spoken too, keep answer simple but enthusiastic and happy
*do dishes more at home (sorry this is one chore I HATE and avoided in the past)
*Visit with friends 2-3x a month (used to only see them every other month because I was always with my husband)
*Treat myself to lunch or dinner ALONE once a week.
*Go out shopping and engage in hobbies alone, never ask husband to join
*do not talk about future or past with husband, do not talk about D
*Do not text Husband unless its an emergency, absolutely do not call him
*be engaged and busy in the house
*make vacation plans without him, plan it with my friends and family instead
