Stuck..how do I get out???

[tiredndrained]

Just a brief update (in case anyone cares..lol). Still making very slow baby steps. H hasn't gone out in about 2 weeks. Big improvement as far as leaving goes but today is Sat so we still have tonight. He is doing things more with the kids and mentally seems more involved. Fixed a bunch of things in the house. Started turing the kid's old playroom into a media room. Something I wanted done for a while now. These are all the positives....The negatives..won't sleep in bed with me, no affection, still treats me like his roommate and not his wife. Also, got in a huge argument the other night after the porn thing. He was telling me he is leaving as soon as he gets a job, etc. Still thinks I am the cause of all his problems and our arguments, although fewer than in the past, are much dirtier than ever before. I've heard myself say things I never in a million years would come out of my mouth. I guess he has a way of bringing that out in me. I guess I am still trying to determine if things will continue to get better or this is the best it will get and he will never warm up to me. I don't want to live forever as a roommate. Still working on me. Going on a business trip this week. Dreading it but maybe it will be good to get out of the house. Kids begging me not to go but I have no choice. They are worried H will leave them overnight when I go. I actually know that won't happen he wouldn't do that but all this drama for the past few months and that is how they perceive his judgement.