if you have had a genuine breakthrough of emotional or spiritual insight, please make a PLAN FOR IMPLEMENTATION so it won't be words that fizzle out into giving up again when it requires work.
you're an engineer right? I think of the guys who draft designs, the "PLanners" who then give it to the guys who take the design or draft,
and figure out how to make that into a reality. I call them the "Implementers".
Like all of us, you will have to design/draft the goals AND come up with ways to implement them...
WE all drafted our plans and then implemented them...but there are tools for that if we need them AND WE DO.
And safeguards or safety "equipment" we use to help with it...like DB boards, a DB coach (did you ever try them? They're not that pricey if you are paying out of pocket for T now & compare)
and support in planning or implementing, which we all need in some form... BUT IF your "new" insight is another extreme form of any plan
THEN STOP & RETHINK it.
Don't come in with the 1) I will leave my w and son for another continent b/c I don't want to work on this or pay more than I feel like, and boy will they be sorry;
or
2) I will give her everything I own and start over somewhere, nursing my self inflicted wounds, blaming others, AND proving that when it comes to sustained work on improving myself, I'm just NOT up for it.
BB, don't choose either of these ^^ options please.
THey are the only ones you seem to swing to and from....neither is right morally or smart emotionally.
So let's see some thoughtful reflective honest & real movement in you.
If I do,
I'll be CLAP CLAP CLAPPING over here.
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