Not confused, still emotional, getting very angry

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Thanks Snodderly - That is what I am trying to do...channel the anger into something positive...still feel it this morning, and it seems I am at the end of my rope with this whole sitch.

I do have much to be proud of and was glad I allowed myself to enjoy the time with my youngest son while watching my oldest son play. I love my kids.

On the agenda this weekend is to hang out with a friend tonight. He is concerned I am so angry, so we are going out for drinks tonight. Tomorrow my son has a soccer game, I plan on getting the taxes done, and I have a phone call scheduled with my estranged father. Sunday, is my sons birthday and H did invite me over to his place so we can give my son his gift and have cake. Other than that no night time plans yet, but I still need to fulfill all those household duties like groceries, laundry, and cleaning and such, so I should be fairly busy.

I think this anger was long overdue and has been building up. I am not sure how long it will take to release. I know it is my emotions right now, and I am focused on not making any life altering decisions at this time although my gut is telling me I should. And yes, I am talking about divorce. I guess in my mind, we live like we are divorced, so why not follow through. It is unfinished business where I am concerned, and I feel if I can get it off my plate I would be much better for it. But I know it is not good to make this decision right now, so on the back burner it goes.