The telegram was a funny love poem - Yes, I talked to the kids sometimes on the phone, and skyped with my son to help him with math. Sometimes I would send a gift for them, and would always bring gifts home. The flowers were just to the house. I think the message said I miss you.
I want to become a man that can nurture and have a real relationship and have friendships. During my day I usually hear from no one outside the family, which [censored]. I have high hopes for EE, hope to come back a different person and grow. The only question will be what, if anything, I tell my family about it. My MIL, for example, will need to know.
I am gone again in April. I understand that DBing requires me to give W space. Nonetheless, I want to - without encroaching on her - still stay in touch, as no communication seems too much. Any recommendation on how/when? There will be more to report this time, as I will be traveling to company HQ and presumably have tales to tell.
S/D would probably say that I love them but am not good at showing it or doing it, that there is awkwardness. S and I had a great time in Spain, and D wants to go to national parks and then to California (where I work) with me in June. I think I said this before, but taking my son to college this past September and then leaving him there was having my heart ripped out, and I told him so. Since then the grief has stopped a bit, but if I think about it, I want to call him and be there with him. Just texted my D.
S comes home from school tonight, on a late flight. I will clean the house so my W does not have to so much.
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M58, xW54 S22, D18 M 1984, D 2016 Living a new life.
