25years, am I reactive yes, and all it does is bring anxiety to me, [censored], I do vent frustration here, and take a step back, I thank all of you for your assistants. Reading these posts does help me.
I have not contacted her since that last message about the money she asked about. She did take half of the money out, exactly right down to the cents, guess she see that as fair. I do understand that all the money issue will come out in the wash. I am just confused about why she DOES NOT she that. If she would have talked to any lawyer they would tell her that. I will leave my half there in the account we agreed, to show that I am a fair person. ( is that a bad idea)
I would to Let her know about my raise, because Times like this is when I really loved my W, she was there to listen, how I wish I could share all the news with her, but I know back of she has moved away from me. Do I think she will be more attracted to me, no. Will it change her mind, I know it won't. Just thought of flowers because it is spring, and I was thinking of her, Posted that here guess because I wanted to be sure it was not a good thing to do.
I did move forward in GAL, 180, really started doing things I like to do, joined a running club. Went out to see music, really had some fun. I started painting. Also joined a Separation group, met some helpful people.
