3 Years after D-Day, part 2. Separated 9 Months.

[Am I Too Late]

Well, it's been 11 days since my W sent me the song lyric message and since she never responded about what SHE was trying to say to me, i haven't initiated any contact with her either, respecting her request to not overwhelm her with messages.

So, it's and unintentional, unplanned Going Dark period.

That leaves so many questions unresolved in my mind, with only her knowing the answers that she has not shared.

How can someone go from feeling more Loved And Adored by me than anyone else in her life, to causing so much turmoil and pain? Was there Ever any True Love from her to begin with, or was it just a temporary 7-8 years that i made her feel good about herself?

Last night was our S-10's schools Open House, Book Fair and Meet The Teacher night, and i know she gets the same school e-mails that i do, so she could have been thete, but didn't even call to inquire about it.

Next week is Spring Break, and we have reservations to go to The Wisconsin Dells to have 5 days of fun at an indoor waterpark, plus do other tourist activities from a discount program.

I actually tossed the idea around about inviting my Wife and letting her go with our S-10 instead of me to try to ignite some Motherly connection, but i discarded that. I want to go and have fun with my Son and he is looking forward to it with me, just like last year. If she makes contact before we leave and indicates she would like to share in the fun, then she can open that door.

The thoughts still continue running rampant in my head about what she was trying to tell me via that song though. I feel like i missed an opportunity to understand her feelings and validate them.

So, my Going Dark period is not a Plan B, but just what it is.

Should i contact her?

AITL