Talking to you last week was an eye opener for me. I couldn't sleep before nor after, there were so many thoughts in my head. It was the first time that I believe I really understood, and so am writing you this letter.
I have been a very selfish person. Instead of being here and being a dad and a husband, I run off to the States, away from you, the kids and the work. Instead of me dealing with the kids' lice or worms, you did. You got the laundry, the vacuuming, the helping with the kids' homework, the cooking, the house painting, the paint scraping, the parental meetings, the trash, and all the unending large burden of running a house and a family. Your time, which could have been spent more on your work, was taken from you by my stupid male greed.
This was very disrespectful and uncaring of me. I didn't even check in, really, to see how you were doing, truly doing, and to tell you that I missed you and the kids. Just the occasional email was presumed to be enough.
For all that I am very sorry. I have taken, not played fair, and not given back, and for all this transgression, I don't presume that you can ever forgive me, but in the karmic way of things, I want to give you this apology.
Luke
M58, xW54 S22, D18 M 1984, D 2016 Living a new life.
