My WAW - coming to terms with it all!

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Thanks hopefulmotherof2.
I hope you are doing okay.

Your advice is spot on, nothing i say makes a difference and I need to make changes for me, not her. My positive changes have been to engage with my two little boys 100%, be in the moment and show them love, compassion and kindness and make their life with me fun and loving so they know that I am here for them 100%. I cant tell how much better my relationship with them is right now, the more love and time i give the more i get back. Truly rewarding.
I am also taking good care of myself too.

I guess I am still in shock, i cant believe that she cannot look back and see how much good there was in our relationship. She is so stuck in the bad stuff.
The hardest part is that when we see each other, she is so friendly as long as the conversation does not turn to our M and our future.
I have managed to cancel our appointment with the C to discuss the seperation/ divorce process. I was not happy with the C who got us here so quickly so i just said that I did not believe that C was the right person to guide us through the next steps.
W agreed.
I will no longer make any effort to fastrack this process or suggest any MC's. It is not my decision to discontinue our M, it is hers.
I will support my W if i have to, but I cannot support her decision as I do not believe in it.

If nothing else i have bought myself some time.I cant wait to get DB and DR!!