Thanks everybody for your wellwishes. Only a little time for an update. I thought living through a 5 year long in-house separation was a rollercoaster ride--this piecing makes me feel like that was childs play. Trying to maintain perspective here, that it can't be like this forever--but not sure how much more up and down I can handle. She can show me glimpses of how things were 37 years ago when we married and then within minutes she can be verbally tearing me to shreds. I am trying to take this all in stride--so far successful in not losing my cool. But I am beginning to feel very doormatish. Hate to admit it but I actually cried myself to sleep Mon night. (she says she does not feel ready to be intimate yet and I am respecting that--we are continuing to maintain the separate bedrooms of the past 5 yrs.) Has anything really changed? Did she see the divorce coming and felt it would upset things for her? Is this just a ploy to get me to back away from the D? Am I totally scrambled in my thinking? Yes, I'm venting too. Thanks for listening. Harv
