Thank you both for stopping by; I am so grateful for the support and hugs.
Originally Posted By: mizjjd
isn't it amazing that just when you think your heart is shattered you find some remaining shred that can still hurt?
Yes. Honestly, I have been abandoned, betrayed, lied to with an "I hate you" cherry on top and I am aching over an "I'll check my schedule" when I offer an opportunity for us to spend time together? Perhaps detachment is just another phrase for death of a dream by a thousand cuts?
It has been a week without any sort of contact. I have no idea if he is trying to reach me at home, but I am not there. But, I did spend a nice two hours having dinner with a colleague and I did not think of xSO once. A fruity cocktail helped
Originally Posted By: mizjjd
I see the ow is setting up camp in your mind again. I'm the last one to talk - but you know that letting her in your head doesn't help.
You know, I had to think about this. Do you know what has really camped out in my head (and must of course be gotten rid of as well) but that after everything he still feels the need to hide it from me. Again, no proof but things are weird somehow and given the time he suggests he is spending by himself or stopping by to talk to a married friend and being very defensive about it just smacks of dishonesty in some fashion. Does he think things can get any worse?
I have accepted that I will never know the "why" of things like I will never know why some parents beat their children or why people kill. Treating even a friend the way he is treating me is just not what I would do. Yet somehow, it makes sense to him or at least he is choosing to act this way.
B, Thank you for the advice. We do sound terribly alike. And you never need to steal anything of use from my advice or threads, it is all given freely
I'm the last one to talk - but you know that letting her in your head doesn't help.