Had session with Laurie today...DB coaching, first time...went well good to have the feedback and know things are going okay for now...
As for touching she encouraged just starting off little with a touch of the arm or hard etc., small at first and go from there and make the timing right...she said it was like getting to know a new person once again...like you would start off slow...so weird to think my marriage is at this point right now...
Now supports I have a big task and will be putting myself out here pretty huge...
I spoke with Laurie about writing an apology letter...my goals of the letter are to say I am sorry, not offer and explanation of my actions and to talk about H and his needs not about me. The letter is long, and I need feedback, I am not discussing the D word. I just wanted H to know I have thought about somethings and feel I am responsible. I have no expectations of the letter and would not mind if H replied or not...just something I want him to know, not in an attempt to change his mind but in giving him some love in the form of an apology.
I will post it later when my son goes to bed, to long to try to do now...will you please give feedback...be nice...I plan to speak with IC tomorrow about it too..planning to give to H Sat night at the house.
