NLW, Ruby, Grace and Busting, thank you for your support. Love you all.

The meeting was really long and stressful. My face was on fire. Anyway, he said I should not accept my H's proposal. He said it'll be detrimental for my financial future.

There is one more step I can take, and that is to go to a Special Masters session at the court, where he'll realize it doesn't make sense to go to a trial. Still, it'll be a day in court and $1,000 more for the L (plus my H will have to retain the L he found.) Total court fees will be about $15,000 if we go to a trial. If we don't agree after seeing the special masters, then the process could take weeks if not months more, and goodbye to not appearing in court. Our whole lives will be scrutinized.

I don't know what to do. I've had ENOUGH!! I'm trying to align myself w peace and this is not peaceful at all. I am supposed to talk to my H tomorrow about another piece of the finances. Should I try to talk sense into him again? Last time he was practically a bully and said he would never agree to anything different from what he wanted.

I never thought this D could get any worse, but it's happening.

I could stop it by just taking what he offers and get it done.

I would be losing money, but would not starve.

I don't know...