Also, I sense that she is "on" to the thing where I don't initiate contact. Before, she didn't realize what I was doing and she was being pulled in by me creating space. Now, it seems like she sees the trend and is reciprocating the treatment. Oh well, I enjoyed it drawing her in while it lasted. Though, the distance I feel from her during a normal day now isn't continued when I'm at the house. She and I are still chummy.
Last night she kept complaining about her back hurting. I took that as a hint for me to rub it, but I made no offer. If she wants to ask me, I'll oblige, but she has to at least ask (at least...that was one of my 180's, which technically was itself a 180). Or maybe I should stop playing stupid games and just rub her dang back. I'm pretty sure I can figure out how to do that without turning into a doormat. Of course, friends don't rub friends' backs...
Aargh! I'm stuck in that mental loop!
M:12y - BD:12/11 - D:6/13 - 4Ds
"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." -MLK Jr.
